I miss livejournal. A lot. I think some of it has to do with simply writing. Not that I have ever written anything interesting, but the simple act of putting pen to paper (fingers to keyboard?) can feel therapeutic somehow. The past year has been so hectic that I've hardly written a word. I have missed writing as much as I have missed my husband while he's been away training (although he'll never know ;o)). I got an idea for a story a while back while going through some of my daughters drawings...pictures of ships, dragons, horses, and a beautiful emerald necklace. Lately the idea has been growing and growing and I have this feeling if I don't write something down soon I'm going to burst. The problem is that it is a fantasy story which feels extremely overwhelming. Any idea I've had previously has been a love story taking place in a small town, involving all humans and no otherworldy creatures or places. However, I am more enthusiastic about this idea than any other. I get excited whenever I think about the characters and how the story might unfold. I want to do research in order to prepare but I am not really sure where to start.
Well, right now I'm going to enjoy some Buffalo Chicken Chili and do something else I haven't done in a long time...make some icons.
I miss LiveJournal. A lot. I miss venting about whatever was going on in my life, discussing favorite books and movies with friends, and just feeling connected to a group of people who felt very much like kindred spirits. My life has changed so much over the past year, what with the new job and getting married. Not to mention getting used to army life. It's true what they say...you not only marry the man, you really are 'married to the military.'
My favorite time of the year has come. First the autumn leaves and the crispness in the air...not to mention candy corn. Soon will come the snow, baking cookies, candy canes, and the beauty of twinkling lights on the Christmas tree. I have a shelf of holiday movies which I'll start to watch very soon, which always gets me even more in the holiday spirit. I love, love, LOVE this time of year!
Although, like Bella, I am still desperately in love with Edward, I AM REALLY LOVING JACOB BLACK RIGHT NOW.
So, I'll be working at nearby pharmacy, mostly in the photolab developing pictures and taking passport photos, but also working the cash as well. I already know I'm going to love the people there. When I went to apply for the job, and later for my interview, the people there were so friendly it was incredible! They are all women, most of them around my age. They made me feel excited about working there and told me it was a great place to work. I actually heard about the job through a girl that also left my previous employer to go work at store. She says it's a million times more pleasant to work there, which has me looking forward to it. I'm still nervous, however. I've never worked cash before, and certainly never in a photolab. I know I"ll be trained properly, but I keep imagining messing up horribly and being laughed out of the store...ridiculous I know, but that's just me. Always preparing myself for the worst.
I contacted one of my favorite authors and actually got a reply. She said that the words I wrote actually made her day, and that she really appreciated the fact that I enjoyed her work and what it meant to me. She then added me as a friend on facebook. YAY! Such a dork, I know, but I she writes the type of novels that I aspire to write and it was just wonderful to see that she is so down to earth and friendly. I was inspired and elated and opened up my old notes and my word program and started working. I've got a great outline and some character sketches, and am incredibly excited to be writing again.
I'm getting married in less than 3 months. Wow. The hall and dj are booked, the dress is in my clost, the food, wine,and flowers have been ordered. Yet somehow it still seems unreal to me, that I'm actually going to walk down the aisle and marry the man of my dreams. Things have been going pretty smoothly, and it seems I'm waiting for that moment went something goes horribly wrong and I turn into Bridezilla. Lets hope not...
The MTV movie awards pre show is airing a completed scene from the Twilight movie tonight. I'm so excited about this it's ridculous. Seeing some of my favorite characters brought to life on the screen is going to be so much FUN. Because that's what Twilight is for me, FUN. It may not be serious or dramatic writing, but it's a great story that I love to lose myself in.
Tori won her first medal for skating. YAY!
I'm off to have some spicy spaghetti and salad, and relax with a good book until the show. Hope everyone is well :o)
I feel absolutely miserable. I don't know what has hit me but I have a headache, the sniffles, achy joints, and a terribly upset stomach. I'm heading to work in half an hour and I'm hoping that keeping a supply of soda crackers and ginger ale at my desk will help me through my shift. I am also hoping that we're not too busy, because on those occasions they send a few of us home, which would allow me to come home early without it counting against me. If I do get to leave, I plan on taking the crackers and ginger ale to bed and watching the new Sense and Sensibility.
Other than feeling sick today things are pretty good. I'm getting back into the routine of not having Charlie around, and Tori and taking care of things around here on our own. It helps that he calls me half a dozen times a day. Tori's figure skating lessons have been going well, she just earned her 3rd badge and is really improving. I find myself looking foward to going to the rink each Saturday and Sunday, and beaming with pride as I watch her skills continue to grow.
I can't sit at this computer any longer. Which makes me wonder how I'm going to do it at work...
I finally got a chance to watch 'Cranford' in its entirety and I must say I enjoyed it very much. Although the loss of some great characters broke my heart, everything wrapped up nicely enough in the end and left me feeling fulfilled and entertained. I can't wait to watch the new 'Sense & Sensibility'!!
Well I'm off to start getting ready for work. Hopefully I won't have to be there very long.
Tomorrow is "goodbye day". The day when Charlie heads back to his course, when Tori heads to a friends house to do something fun and distracting, and when I spend the day either in bed or on the couch, watching costume dramas and eating junk food, feeling miserable. It may sound pathetic but I need that one day. A day to be lazy and comfy and not worry about thinks like working, chores, and stress. A day to miss him and pout and cry. After that I get back to my normal routine and count down the days until this entire course is done. I thank God for the strength he's given me to get me through these times...
Just thought I would post quickly while Charlie is having some daddy/daughter time tucking Tori in and reading her a story. Hope everyone is well.
I hope everyone had a wonderfully happy holiday. I should have posted holiday wishes a lot sooner but I've been incredibly busy. We spent a week in Ontario with Charlie's family, and it went even better than I could have imagined. They were so friendly and welcoming, and they adored Tori. We had a lot of fun talking about the upcoming wedding (this august) and it seems most everyone will be making the trip here to attend and staying in town for about a week. We had Christmas Eve dinner and gift exchange there and flew home Christmas day to have dinner and presents with my family.
It's been wonderful being with Charlie. He's been getting a lot of stuff done around the house for me, and we've been enjoying some quiet evenings at home watching movies, talking, and just being together. Tonight we're having friends over to ring in the new year. I've been cooking all day: homemade chip dip, chili, chicken wings (hot and bbq), rice, and cupcakes. Nothing like family, good food and good friends to start the new year off right :o)
In other news: The BBC has broken my heart. The series 2 finale of Robin Hood took it and smashed it into a million little pieces. I can't even think about it without getting sad/angry.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
Now, on top of the mood I've been in, I'm sick. My stomach is acting all funky and I've had a migraine since yesterday. I don't have any refills left on my medication so I'm considering leaving work early to go see the doctor. However, there's always that guilt that comes along with leaving work early. What's a girl to do...go to work and suffer miserably through her entire shift so that she can have the pride and satisfaction of saying she got through it? Or leave as early as she can to go see the doctor and take her medicine so she can crawl into bed early and fall asleep while watching Margaret and Mr. Thornton?
Although I'm Canadian I have tomorrow off because I work for an American company and am lucky enough to enjoy all of their holidays. This makes me very happy, and I'm looking forward to having time to do some housework, then relax and watch a good movie and spend some quality time with Tori. And maybe get in a good telephone/webcam conversation with Charlie.
Speaking of Charlie...this whole separation thing has been really hard. I get so frustrated sometimes and just want him to come home. See, we agreed to stick it out until this training is done in August, seeing one another on holidays and long weekends, until we're finally posted to the military base where he will be working and we can begin living together and getting back to our normal lives. But it gets really difficult sometimes because, and I HATE to say this, sometimes I get a little jealous, or even paranoid. For instance, if he's had long day and doesn't really have a long period of time to talk on the phone, I feel offended that he doesn't want to talk to me. There's also a woman (one of only three) who is on the same course as he is, and I find myself getting extremely jealous whenever he is around her. I'm not sure why and it really caught me off guard when I found that I was feeling this way. I talked to him about it and he assured me that she is just like "one of the guys" and is merely someone who studies with them sometimes or who drives them to the store since she is the only one in their little group of friends who has a car (our car is here with me). I feel guilty because he's really given me no reason to feel jealous or suspicious. He calls and texts every day to say he loves and misses me. He always calls to tell me where his is if he's going out, and what time he'll be back. I don't know...maybe I just watch too many romantic movies, and I expect him to be calling and writing me every spare moment that he has, professing his undying devotion. I just know I have to be careful because I've heard too many stories about jealousy breaking up a relationship.
Anyway, now that I've rambled on about my ridiculous issues I'd like to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. I hope everyone has a wonderful and relaxing day tomorrow!
I finished babysitting early today so I now have 3 extra hours of time to myself. I think I'll bake some cookies with Tori and maybe make a few icons...something I haven't done in so long I think I might have forgotten how...or how to make anything worthwhile anyway.
It snowed here today. Not a lot, just enough to remind me that winter is just around the corner. I'm not looking forward to it. I mean, snow can be quite pretty, especially when you're curled up on the couch watching a movie and drinking hot cocoa, or when you're decorating the Christmas tree...but not when you have to shovel it, walk in it, or fall down in it because it's hiding ice underneath (happens to me every year).
We just booked flights to travel to Ontario over the Christmas holiday. I will be meeting Charlie's family for the first time. The ENTIRE family. I'm terrified. I'm positive it's going to turn out like some really bad holiday movie where I make a complete fool of myself in front of them all, knocking over the tree or dropping the turkey.
I'm off to enjoy my free time before I head to work.
I am so tired. I have to leave for work in an hour and it's going to take every bit of energy I can muster just to get myself there. I only work for 5 hours, but right now it feels like the longest shift in the world. My couch and The Tudors are looking very tempting right now. I may have the option to leave early when I get there if we're not busy, but financially I can't really do that, not with Christmas right around the corner and a ton of presents yet to be purchased.
Both Robin Hood and Moonlight were great last week. I am becoming increasingly obsessed with both shows. I'm glad I have something good to watch every week, because while Charlie is away the bordeom tends to drive me more than a little nuts. I'm thinking about catching up on Gossip Girl before it gets any further into the season. Can anyone tell me anything about it, and if it's something I might enjoy?
Tori was chosen skater of the month for October in her figure skating club...I'm so proud! She was also featured on our local news broadcast last night on a feature they are running on the new smaller classroom sizes they are trying out at her school:
We've set the wedding date for August 23rd. 10 months from now. I already have my dress, have booked the hall, and ordered my cake so I feel like I'm pretty on top of things considering the amount of time I have left. I'm a little lost when it comes to planning a wedding but I have some good friends who are married and my mother just bought me a bunch of books, including Wedding Planning For Dummies. Thanks Mom.
Am obsessed with Moonlight. Looove Mick/Beth. So much. But then, you can always find me wherever there's a wonderfully angsty couple. Especially if one of them is a vampire.
Uglies, Pretties, and Specials by Scott Westerfield
His Dark Materials (trilogy) by Philip Pullman
The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
The Dark Mirror, Blade of Fortriu, and The Well of Shades (Bridei Chronicles) by Juliet Marillier
Wildwood Dancing by Juliet Marillier
A Northern Light by Jennifer Donnelly
I have a feeling I'm going expanding my library very very soon. I'm in need of some fun new reads, and that's what most of these books are. Nothing too dark and depressing, at least I don't think so. Several of them are classified as teen reads, but so is 'Twilight' and that ended up being wonderful. I've been wanting to read something else by Juliet Marillier ever since I first read her Sevenwaters trilogy, which I absolutely adored. Seriously one of my favorite books/series ever.
I miss Charlie. So much that sometimes it physically hurts. I keep thinking about how great it was while he was home. One night while he was fiddling around with his guitar and I was reading, our song (The Scientist by Coldplay) came on a mixed cd we were listening to. He put the guitar down, came over to me, took me in his arms and started to dance. He kept kissing the top of my head and telling me how much he loved me and how glad he was to have met me, because it brought not only me, but Tori into his life. The next night, he proposed. Words can't even describe how I feel about this man, and how proud I am of everything that he does. He works so hard for his family, takes care of his grandmother, is a loving and attentive father, he's romantic, and is just such a good all around person. For most of my life I never believed I'd find that person I would want to spend the rest of my life with. I don't know how I ever got so lucky.
I''m at work right now, and I don't remember the last time I longed for my bed as much as I do right now. I feel awful. I have a stomach ache, a headache, chills, and feel incredibly tired. It's taking everything in me not to fall asleep at my desk.
I'm dying to discuss 'Eclipse' with someone. I feel heartbroken and emotionally exhausted after reading it, but after 'Twillight' and 'New Moon' I expected nothing less. It was everything I hoped it would be, and I'm already eager for the next installment. Too bad I'll have to wait another year to find out what happens next.
Who on my flist is planning on seeing Becoming Jane?
I think I may watch The Last of the Mohicans later. And eat something, anything, made of chocolate.
- Music:Silverchair - Straight Lines
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